Friday, September 20, 2013

It's F1 weekend in Singapore

But sorry to disappoint you. I have no F1-related photos.

I'm actually here to air out my frustration on not being able to party with many here in Singapore.

It's Friday evening and I just arrived in my flat from the office. I have yet to settle from the high and nervousness I had from this job, and my upcoming business trip this Sunday.

Did I tell you? I am already in Singapore! And been in this job for 3 weeks already!!!

The world has been nice to me. And the boss has been. But I know I really have to step up to deserve this job.

I am so looking forward to my family - Rene, Umi, and the helper, Nang Vilma - joining me here. Soon. I guess my Mom will stay here with us as Nang Vilma works on her papers.

Some takeaways from Rene's visit last weekend.





Thursday, August 01, 2013

Ask and you shall receive

Indeed. It has happened to me many times. And it has happened to me again more recently.

They picked me!

They offered me the job. And we will all be relocating to Singapore. To Singapore it is after 2.5 years.

Moreover, a former colleague who dreamed of another opportunity that will include a mission to some exotic place, will transfer to another project that will require her to be in Maldives for 2 full weeks!!!!

Amazing. To God be the glory.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Some surprises at 30


I expected a major change when I turned 30. I quit my job of 2 years in hopes of landing a permanent role in the corporate sector for a more financially rewarding environment. A month now of being jobless and still counting, I have come to realize that the change I am looking for may not necessarily come in the form of a more financially rewarding yet demanding career. Rather, it may be in the greater appreciation of my current situation and stronger focus on my roles as a wife-to-be and mother of an 11-month-old lovely daughter. That said, I have become more grateful of the opportunity to still be part of an organization that despite the lower nominal income, still affords me a healthy lifestyle and significant quality time with my family.

So I have come to accept that the change I expected at 30 will not occur in my career but instead, in my mindset. I will be a woman with greater devotion to my family and my current work. After all, I am still lucky to have a respectable job that I enjoy doing and that allows me to spend time with my family. 

Just when I have already psyched myself with this mindset, a major surprise comes! A prospective employer from abroad calls me and asks me to fly to that country within 1.5 days. And so I subjected myself to quite a roller coaster ride in a day – flying to that country with just my small handbag and a laptop, getting interviewed upon arrival at the foreign country’s airport, then heading directly to the office for another series of interviews. I was initially booked to return to Manila in the evening but I managed to have it rebooked to the next day. It was exciting listening to the work of different employees in this organization but it was also exhausting to spend the whole afternoon talking about almost the same thing to different people. After having spoken to six different people now in the company, I am hoping against all hopes to get this job. Moreover, the office is airy, more spacious than my old office in a similar organization in this country. Above all, the working environment seemingly gives me a lighter feeling. I thought to myself, there could actually be a job in this "greedy" sector that just fits me. Oh Lord, I just pray.

The perks of this quick trip come, among other things, in being able to travel on business class, thereby, unlimited food in the lounge.  
Breakfast of french toasts, egg florentine,

pudding, yogurt and orange juice 
Another surprise: Former Philippine
Senator Kiko Pangilinan sat across
my table as I was having breakfast
at the SQ Silver Kris Terminal 2 lounge
at Changi Airport!
And meeting a very good friend in Singapore. And some more friends.
Fr. Tom and I were just ecstatic to see each other again!
With my former housemates, just like old times
And being able to visit my old school again.
The SMU library

For now, I am just utterly grateful that the employers gave me this opportunity to fly out to meet them. 
Bye, Singapore...

Monday, May 20, 2013

Happy birthday, Lola Apay!

Happy 103rd birthday, Lola!

Lola, you are greatly missed. Your passing has left a hole in my heart. But I am pacified believing that you are already at peace with God above.

I will forever miss you, Lola. Daghang salamat sa tanan.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

A Boracay love affair

This is Boracay to us all.


And this is Boracay to me. And my family.

At this very spot on 16 Feb 2013, R proposed to marry me.

God willing. (Thanks, Cath, for making this!)

Mom's with you

Mommy's with you (and Papa too!) to face the waves, love.

Friday, April 12, 2013

That reaching 30 project

Because I am turning 30 in 2 months, I feel like there should be a major change in my life, even if it's just a change in mindset.

What a coincidence that I came across these simple reminders in the net.




Read the article here.

By the way, as I was expressing milk this afternoon, it came to me that I should be grateful - I am a mom who's working and expressing milk! And a wife soon! Makes me feel like I am Wonder Woman. Thank You for all the opportunities You have blessed me and my family. 

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

When's the last time you wanted something so badly?

A possible opportunity came to my lap last Thursday. On Friday, I was certain I wanted it because I knew I could do it.

But the road may not be that easy. I was told I have to go through 3 hurdles and that I have to do my own due diligence. And that I have to wait patiently.

Oh, Lord, thank you for this opportunity. Thank You that they have noticed me. But please, Lord, let this be mine, rightfully mine, for my own good and for the good of my family.

If not, grant me the grace to accept Your will. But please, Lord, lead me to a better path as I turn 30 this June. And grant me the grace to always have a grateful heart.

Prepare me. As I wait patiently. 

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I am an AQUA(wo)MAN!

I completed my second aquathlon last Sunday, 17 March at the Aquaman Aquathlon. That's 2 weeks after my first. This time, I swam 800 meters and ran 5 kms. 

This is my record:
  • Swim (800m): 0:28:54
  • Run (5km): 0:39:08
  • Overall: 1:08:02
Ranking is available here.

Happy with this one. I am now more energized to improve my running. =)

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Dugong on the loose - an aquathlon debut

On 3 March, I finally made my athletic event debut since completing that half-marathon while 5 weeks pregnant

Set for swimming
I initially planned to go back into running slowly, gradually working my way towards completing 10 kilometers. However, I found myself too heavy to run so I resorted to swimming, something that I have been doing once in a while since 2007. Being a low-impact sport, I thought swimming would be the best exercise given my current weight.   

So I signed up for Ateneo Aquathlon 2013 and swam 600 meters and ran 5 km.

My record? Here:
  • Swim (600m): 00:20:12:
  • Run (5km): 00:42:31
  • Overall: 1:05:58
I was happy with my swimming performance although I realized I swam really slow that R likened me to a dugong. I did not expect much from my running because I really found myself very heavy. Out of 10 racers, I finished 7th in the swimming part and last in the run. Overall, I finished 10th place. Haha! 

Well, I am glad to be back in the game! 

And excited for my next aquathlon this coming Sunday, 17 March. Wish me luck!

Sharing my photos at the Ateneo Aquathlon 2013.

Swimming for 12 25-m laps
From swimming to running
Was glad R joined me in running! 
Finisher's shot since there is no finisher medal
We celebrated our little victory over breakfast

Monday, March 11, 2013

That half-marathon while 5 weeks pregnant

I once did a half-marathon while 5 weeks pregnant. That may be my second most memorable pregnancy experience. The first, of course, was the birth of Umi which I would like to think was akin to completing a full marathon. 

I was one of the 288 21-km runners of the Corregidor International Half Marathon (CIHM) on 10 December 2011. And no one knew, at least those in the race—even my running companions, that I was already 5 weeks pregnant. I finished 15th from the last, with a time of 3 hours 34 minutes and 23 seconds.

What follows is my recollection of how I found myself running towards the finish line one remarkable day.

Ultrasound at 4 weeks
9 days before CIHM. I learned about my pregnancy a week before CIHM 2011. My first ultrasound indicated that I was 4 weeks pregnant. The doctor immediately prescribed Duphaston for the developing fetus to hold on and advised me to stop any strenuous activity until the second trimester. The latter came as a shock to me as I was then at the height of my running and yoga activities. I just resumed yoga in April and running in July after recovering from a surgical operation due to endometriosis in February. In November, I completed my first half-marathon with Run United and was very excited to try a more hilly terrain for my second half-marathon with CIHM. So there I was, reluctant to follow my doctor’s advice.

The running superwomen. I searched for information on running and pregnancy in the internet. And there I learned about the likes of Amber Mills, who completed a full marathon a few hours before she gave birth. Of course, there are those running divas Paula Radcliffe and Kara Goucher who trained for their races while pregnant.  Definitely, marathoner pregnant women exist and have given birth to healthy babies. Yet, we also know that these pregnant women did not reach the finish line with an overnight’s work. They have been running way before they became pregnant; thus, running while pregnant is no longer new to their bodies. They also admit to have decreased the intensity of their runs—distance- or speed-wise—during their pregnancy. But they continued running, nonetheless.

If others can, why can’t I? So I thought to myself, “if others can, why can’t I?” But it wasn’t really that easy a decision. Especially that the doctor thought I had a sensitive first trimester. However, apart from the mild cramping that I occasionally experienced that time, which could be due to the stretching of the uterus to adjust to the growing fetus, I felt fine. Also, I was still very eager to exercise and my body seemed to be cooperating. On the following week that I learned about my pregnancy, I still attended Vinyasa yoga until my instructor advised me to put my yoga practices on hold until the end of my first trimester. I discussed with R my plan of joining CIHM. R and I both agreed that my body had been accustomed to running—having progressed from 10 kilometers in July to 21 kilometers in November (and even running way back) —and we believed that it would do no harm to Umi (the name of our growing baby) if I run about 10 kilometers in CIHM at a slow pace. I just had to be more aware of my body as I run; never attempt to go beyond my limit—a level certainly lower than what I used to know especially with a developing Umi within me. And there, I had the green light to join CIHM.

CIHM day. I almost missed the ferry to Corregidor on the day of the race. I noticed that my body had become more demanding of sleep—requiring me to sleep by 10 pm and for at least 8 hours through the night. Having slept at past 12 midnight because of a Christmas party at work, I did not wake up in time for the ferry’s scheduled departure to Corregidor. Luckily, I was able to catch the departing ferry that was 30 minutes delayed.

The sun was up when we arrived at Corregidor Island. I picked up my race kit which I failed to pick up in Manila and found my 2 running companions. We agreed to run at more or less the same pace.

Shortly after the gun was fired, I was surprised to find myself already panting after about 100 meters. Fatigue was kicking in. Was it the lack of sleep the night before? But I also did not get enough sleep the last time I ran 21 kms in mid-November. I believed it must be because of my pregnancy. Earlier that week, my colleagues and I were practicing for our Christmas party dance presentation and I was surprised at how easily I would get exhausted. However, I did not realize that the exhaustion would occur that soon in my running. Thus, I allowed myself to be left behind by my running buddies and ran at a really, really slow pace.

I kept running, or I might as well say I kept on jogging, as I tried to be cautious of what was going on in my tummy. I imagined that the fetus cannot be stirred too vigorously in my tummy so I had to run really slowly. I would say that the early fatigue that caused me to run slowly early on complemented my already growing motherly protective instinct.

I kept on jogging continuously until the 10th kilometre when I decided to start my walk-jog intervals to take time to rest. I relished the opportunity to be able to join this event as it gave me the chance to explore Corregidor on foot. I just wished R was with me to enjoy those moments.

A quick pose in the middle of the 21-km stretch
I also considered ending my actual race at this point. However, I thought it was embarrassing to walk back, against the flow of runners. Besides, I deemed my body was still willing to complete another kilometre, and then another. Moreover, I got challenged with the hilly terrain of the island. The running trail was something that I could not easily find in Manila. Actually, more than the challenge, it was nostalgia that hit me. The hilly terrain was something similar to my two jogging paths in Singapore. And having spent about a year mastering that route, I believed I was capable of conquering this one as well.      

Running towards the finish line
It was a long run and no matter how interesting and beautiful the scenery could get, boredom was likely to set in. I realized this during my previous half-marathon at the Mall of Asia–Roxas Boulevard route where I got fed up with all the music I had saved in my mp3 player. At CIHM, I decided that after listening to some music, I would pray the rosary. Throughout the whole 21-km stretch, I was able to finish all the 4 mysteries of the holy rosary. And If I had only memorized the litany, I would still have enough time to recite them, too. It was actually a beautiful time spent praying.

At probably the 20th kilometre, I went to the loo and checked myself. There was no bleeding; thanked God that Umi and I were fine. I then moved towards the finish line. The last kilometre was the hardest. As I was on a hilly portion, I could already see the finish line below and yet I still had a kilometre to go. I kept running until the finish line got nearer and nearer that finally, finally, I was there. Finally.  

With my running buddies, Arthur and Ivy
My running buddies—who had finished way ahead of me—and I then celebrated our little victory with some photos at the finish line, as we were all excited to share our own CIHM experiences. After all, who would not be so eager to talk after 2-4 hours of solitary running and quietude?     

An inspiration. The CIHM committee awarded the top 10 runners in the male and female categories. Spectators that we were during the awarding ceremony, my running buddies and I were amazed and inspired by the winners. I personally knew one of the top male runners for he was my housemate in college. Right there, I was again reminded of the power of one’s dreams. Back in college, he shared his desire to join the mountaineering organization in our university. A year later, he finally qualified as a member after passing the stringent physical tests of the organization. Later on, he ventured into doing marathons and then ultramarathons. Back in college, I would not have an idea that we would reach this moment—he, being a half-marathon awardee and I, a spectator.

I also recognized a woman from my office who was awarded as one of the top 10 female runners for the 10k category. She seemed to be in her 40s, married, and has children. That was when I told myself to commit to a physically active lifestyle even if I am already a mother. And my decision to join CIHM that day was, hopefully, only the beginning of more physical activities with Umi, with R, and even with our future children.

The day after. The following day, when the euphoria of my half-marathon had partially subsided, paranoia set in. Even if I did not see any bleeding, I believed I still have to get myself checked. So I saw my ob-gyne and was examined internally through an ultrasound. He found out that I had subchrionic haemorrhage and was advised to go on bedrest for about 2 weeks (I didn't and continued to report to work) and prescribed some medicines. It took me exactly two weeks to be back to the normal process of pregnancy.

However, one more week after recovering from the haemorrhage, I started to have mumps. I suspected I got the virus from the large concentration of people in the marathon as the mumps virus have an incubation period of 16-18 days. Or I could have gotten the virus in the mall or wherever. Nonetheless, I realized the concentration of people in a fun run is another risk that a pregnant runner (or just about anyone) has to face. That said, a pregnant woman has to be aware of the consequences whenever she exposes herself to a large crowd.

The doctor could not tell the effect of mumps on the developing fetus. He just assured me that measles have a more adverse effect on the fetus than mumps do. R and I, and many more significant others, prayed for Umi’s health.

Umi at 7 months
Back to the present. It is already 7 months since I gave birth to Umi. And we are deeply grateful for Umi’s excellent health and happy character. I have R to thank for being supportive and understanding of my needs, my colleagues at work who never fail to make me laugh during crunch times, my loved ones who constantly prayed for me and Umi, and above all, His constant graces.

I sometimes ask myself if I would still do those activities that I did (there were other risky ones) in my succeeding pregnancies, given the consequences it may have caused the unborn child. My answer is, it would depend on my physical and emotional condition then. If I would still be a physically active woman—which I intend to be—and there are no serious risks to the baby and myself, I would still do them. But no one can really tell. On another note, I may have to attribute my youth for having done all those adventures and I may no longer be so eager to go on those same adventures in the future. Well, I hope not to lose the youth in me as I age.

The “holistic” lifestyle. On a side note, I believe my pre-pregnancy and pre-natal activities have helped me deliver smoothly. I was lucky to have a short labor of 5 hours. People say that giving birth the natural way—without pain relievers—involves a great deal of energy. That’s why mothers have to prepare for the big day emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I did try to live a “holistic” lifestyle during my pregnancy—doing occasional yoga exercises and spending quality times with myself, Umi, and R, to fill the emotional part; walking as much as I can (after that half-marathon at CIHM), eating healthy food (although I did go overboard on the eating part), and swimming, to fill the physical aspect; and praying, while making a point to hear weekday masses apart from Sunday masses, to strengthen one’s spirituality. I believe my yoga exercises, that firm mindset to deliver naturally, R’s labor coaching, and the prayers, helped me endure those mind-blowing labor pains. Again, I was lucky to go through that difficult process relatively shorter.

I would like to think my holistic lifestyle did pay off. And I haven’t mentioned yet the benefits such lifestyle has brought to my baby. Haha! I should stop here before I start sharing how proud I am of Umi, which R and I now know is a natural feeling parents have toward their children! =)

Sharing the photos I took en route to the finish line. I told you I took this opportunity as a walking tour, too.

The guy I met at the ferry - we shared the
same experience of almost having
to run or swim after a departing ferry
One of the routes 

 






The killer part - most runners
I saw had to "climb" this part

Finally

Friday, January 18, 2013

The smell of damp earth

I go home during lunch now to play with Umi, have some home-cooked lunch by Nang Vi, and express milk. Because of this, lunch breaks are literally a break for me - a pause from what I got myself engrossed with at work in the morning (which sometimes are actually guilt-filled non-work activities). Although I usually rush to finish all these lunch activities given the time constraint, I actually find these lunch breaks refreshing. Well, what could be more refreshing than playing with a 5-month-old kiddo who just laughs at the funny sounds I make?

However, as with many things, there's always a BUT. And the big BUT is that I find it utterly dragging to go back to the office after these lunch breaks. I used to run half marathons and yet I get so tired walking for about 200 meters from my place to the house. It always comes up to me, in the middle of whatever I am thinking during these seemingly long walks, that my place is SO NEAR, YET SO FAR FROM THE OFFICE! Ugh!

I told you about these different thoughts that come up to me while walking. As I walked back this afternoon, I thought of gardening. And not actually posting this activity on Facebook. I thought to myself, this Facebook has created a phenomenon. When was actually the last time you thought about something without thinking of not posting it on Facebook? I mean, even if your better judgement eventually won and you decided not to post it, you still initially considered posting it anyway.

My mental ramblings continued. Gone were the days when you do something without having to let other people know about it. I wish I can go back to those summers that were spent tilling the soil in front of our house, planting duranta along the walkway to our porch (and that rose that eventually grew and bore flowers), painting those horses from the paint-by-number kit that I bought from a nearby city, and memorizing country capitals that were listed at the back of a world map that a friend gave me. Those were just the days when there were less distractions - no mobile phones, no internet connection, and the fact that my house was not easily accessible by my schoolmates.

Those were the days, I thought, as I neared the office gate. I walked past a small garden - and wondered what the plants are - then past someone tilling the soil. And there! THERE! The smell of soil, that warm scent of damp earth, filled me for a brief moment. It suddenly brought those gardening memories at home or in school alive. Those simpler, humbler moments all came back to their crisp lives for a short instance. And then, I have to go back to work. Or start working...

Talking about coincidence? Or fate? Nah, whatever.