On growing up

Tonight, I felt what I think most grownups feel.

I became scared of the thought of suddenly losing my job - the only source of my income.

My liabilities are growing. I shelled out serious money as deposit for my flat. I have released postdated cheques to the company that owns my flat. And just today, I spent almost the same amount as my deposit to buy a bed, an electric stove, an iron and ironing board, tables and chairs, kitchen utensils, electric fan, rice cooker, and what else. The list is growing. And I am weakening with the thought that my savings account is being depleted.

What if I suddenly lose my job? What will happen to me? It's really scary.

This is the first time that I have committed myself to something that involves serious money. So is this what growing up is all about?

Let me just say that

I'm so tired. :(

Chill Monday

Today, I discovered another feeling that have been dormant in me for quite some time now.

It is true that once you start letting go of your competitiveness, things just get lighter. And it's easier to smile huh!

But I still have to learn how to deal with bossy people. Haha!