Update

And there are, indeed, rules that are broken.

I will get what I asked for. At least that's what boss promised me.

But this didn't happen after a two month emotional battle. I hoped I would come out of this battle unscathe but my vulnerable self  later succumbed to tension headache...

But thank You for making everything possible. And thank You for the nice people I met along the way. May they always be blessed.

A highlight of my week must be the Discovery Weekend last March 10-11. It was a nice experience to bond with a special someone. And to meet interesting and inspiring couples, too. =)

Rules

What do you think of rules?

One lesson I've learned is not to accept rules blindly.

There are rules that are meant to be broken. I will prove you that soon.

Hot-tempered me

Need to air out my anxieties. I thought I was over my tension headache that lasted almost a week, when now, I am starting to feel it resurfacing again.

I hate some people. I want to throw hurtful words at them, drown them with embarrassment, sue them so they lose their jobs! I have these evil thoughts in my head. I know I shouldn't allow smaller things to get into me, even that case of pushing for that raise you deserve. And the feeling that you have been caught behind your back.

Fuck! You'll have your day, bitch! Liars go to hell.

I hope I can just be a level-headed bitch, stone-faced with a rock-solid heart. Only in some areas of life, of course.

After a morning with Suze Orman in Manila

The godfather...and his gelato

Mommy's here, my love

I pray that the good Lord will mold me to become the mother you ought to have. 

Reminding myself again that

The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.

Of death and life and an early Christmas present

Lola Apay passed away at age 101 on November 26 at around 7 in the morning. Though painful, it was the most joyful funeral I have witnessed. We recalled Lola's long life and how finally, she is at peace with the Lord, and is reunited with her love, Lolo Susing, who left her 29 years ago.

It was in the funeral that I realized that, Paz, her real name, means peace in Spanish. To find peace within herself was always my prayer for her when she was already bedridden during the the last four years of her life.

Lola Apay, you will be missed. Thank you for embracing my family with love. 

December 2, 2011. This news came to me. 

Initial reaction? Joy and excitement within. Might be a rough road ahead. But I know I am not alone in this. I remain hopeful that everything will turn out well. Welcome to the world, Umi! 

That's our name for you for now - Megumi (blessing in Nihonggo). We'll call you Umi for short, which happens to mean the sea (in Nihonggo). How apt as Lola Apay loved the sea. She used to celebrate her birthdays when she was younger at Acuna Beach.

May these photos tell you how much you are loved and welcomed in our lives.